How nice it was when we ended the 28km route march, the BSLC grad parade. When I thought all was over, it's just another bloody beginning.
How sad it was when you see your mates getting all excited over their new posting. When you and a few of the others gets to stay at the same place, but a different coy, that's rumored to be the worse.
I know and I know that I shouldn't be letting this fear grip my heart. But how could I stop it? Somehow this uneasiness has been in me for the past few days, every single time I think about returning back to camp, I'm afraid. I'm really uncertain of what terrible things that will come my way.
I know, I told myself to take anything that comes, to get my 3SG rank and get out of ASLC soon but it's still 13weeks away! Feels terrible just thinking about the 5km run and the 21 basic exercise every morning.
I really hope I can take it. Probably physically I'm able. But right now, my mental is undergoing a struggle, a breakdown (soon?).
No one else could ever help me, except you Lord. I am not expecting you to bring me out of all these, because I believe that there is a reason for all that I'll undergo. But all I'm asking is for you to bring me through it, and I know you will.
Give me strength and courage, to take everything with boldness. Give me comfort and peace, to calm my heart. Give me wisdom and knowledge, to deal with problems and difficulties. Give me your holy spirit, to guide and stay by my side.
All things are possible with you my Lord. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. [Philippians 4 : 13]
sTUDIED in:
Temasek Polytechnic(2005 - 2008)
Nan Chiau High School(2001 - 2004)
May Primary School(1998 - 2000)
Towner Primary School(1995 - 1997)
bELIEVES that:
- Everyone has a purpose on earth.
- God loves ME and YOU.
- Nothing is Impossible.
- Having a good attitude is having a good life.
- Do unto one as you would others do unto you.
Blog customised on: 14 March 2011 Made to fit personal preference