Sometimes its just so unfair when some fantastic ideas cannot be appreciated by the majorities and ended up being scraped or put off. The reason why the majority always wins is because in a sense, it benefits more people (the majority) and vice versa.
But somehow I feel that, this trend is limiting creativity. For example, you have a team of members to create a project. So you propose a fantastic idea that is so appealing, however, MAJORITY of your team members maybe like 7/10 rejected that idea because they are lazy and finds the idea too tedious. Therefore a vote was raised up, and of course, the idea got put away as they voted for something simpler.
So its like, this simple emotional feeling in the majority (selfishness) may end up just wrecking the future of the group. It may affect your marks, or business or whatever. I'm not saying rejecting ideas = confirm fail. What I'm trying to say is, we should all give our best, if you are going to put off someone elses idea, the best reason to do it would be because you came up with a BETTER one, and not because of a SIMPLER one.
And also, one point here is to get like-minded people into your group of network, meaning people with the same vision. A common goal to work for, so that each one would be able to walk and not be a burden for people to drag you along. You can't have a team of half slackers and half workaholic, they don't match. People with different talents and skills doesn't mean they don't share the same vision.
In the past, people say Singaporean (actually not only us..) too "Kiasi" (afraid to die/risk), in some way, its still true for now. Now people only play the game and try to SURVIVE in it, but even kids know that we play a game and we play to WIN!
The majority's decision may overrule the minority's (surely) but lets hope that some day, this method of decision making can be overthrown by a better one.
Random. [ life is like a marathon, you started with the will to finish the race, but halfway through or even at the beginning, you start to pant and grasp for air, and your environment distracts and tries to pulls you away from the race, making tons and tons of excuses in your mind, you wish to give up. BUT, are you born a LOSER? Who likes to lose? No one, but why is it that nobody wish to win? Winning not in the sense of champion of the race, but completing the race(dreams). ]
( This post is not written to direct any argument/comments on anyone, but this is my personal thoughts on the topic. So if anyone out there got offended by this post, then maybe its time to reflect? Oh well, I know throughout this post, I got a little off topic, but hey, I don't restrict the ideas/words generating in my brain, one topic just leads to another, doesn't it? )
I had a taste of the consequence of poor management.
Some time ago, I was given the task to stick and paste parts together to form a wobbler, which is basically a piece of card on a plastic strip that you see in the super market. And well the wobblers, have so so many it doesnt seem to end, and I remember that time I helped to make around 400 of them, as the thickness and shape is quite irregular so difficult to pack.
So after doing that 400, I was told to put into a paper bag. And happily I submitted my work, now here comes the consequence, because they didn't think ahead, much of the wobblers have been damaged because they were put together in the bag.
AND, I'll have to redo them.....
In the beginning they should have thought of that, and not ask me to put into a paper bag. And now look at my waste of efforts, I'll have to put them back together again. Doing one isn't hard but doing in bulk numbers is wow.
But well, it doesn't affect me because I have work piling up and that'll have to wait. Till then.
Just yesterday I had so much to blog until I've got to stop myself my blogging or else I'll probably have like 6 post in one day. And today, my brain appears to be dead (even with coffee) and I'm trying real hard to type something here now.
You must be thinking that "can't think of anything to blog then don't blog", but well, I am trying to cultivate the habit of blogging, so that my brain would not go rusty one day.
Anyway, my previous post, about the help on my work, I've receive response and thank you to those that have responded. But my senior just told that, it wasn't so urgent to be done, I have time till 30th July. And with that, she gave me a new task to do today.
After one data entry comes another, now I am doing something that is similar, just that I suppose they are just two different event survey. And that the one I'm doing now is much more lesser than the previous one with 200++ surveys. I suppose this have less than 100.
And and, pray that I don't get frustrated like the last time, with those UNREADABLE handwriting and text. This survey form is slightly better because below every German word, there is a translated english text. Unlike the previous one where I've got to keep referring to the handout. So yeah, this one is good.
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some other upcoming stuffs that I'm excited about:
I need some help on my work. Currently I'm task to do some research for my company.
supposed to research on these topics:
♠ Branding Direction ♠ Understanding the new Marketing Communication structure and SOPs ♠ Marketing Communication Team and roles. ♠ E-marketing ♠ E-bulletin ♠ Marketing Approach and tools (Customer collaboration and new media)
If you have some free time to spare, please me help find websites/text for all these topics using Google, Yahoo, Live or whatever search. Because I feel that if I search on it alone, I might miss out some good pages.
If you come across or know any sites related to the above topics, please let me know either by posting the link in the tagboard, email me, or simply just telling me in MSN(junyong_exist@hotmail.com). Thanks!!
Just an annoucement, as I suddenly have this thought of creating my own layout and skin for this blog. Although I edited and personalise the codes from the original skin into my own skin (current), still it is considered the works of others.
Therefore I've decided to code, design from scratch into something of my own, something that is unique. But, one important point here, that is, it'll take quite some time because I still need to settle and organise data from my external hdd into my lappy (just reformatted), and I'll have to install the various programs in order to work on the design and the codes.
So please bear with me, because I feel this might take months, haha. But I shall give myself a deadline - By the month of July! For the time being, stick with me with my current skin.
Basic layout plan:
Theme: [ Brainstorming in progress] Color:(as usual) Black and white. Background: Self-drawn/design. Format(tabs/one-piece): One-piece, same as current. Miscellaneous items: Short flash animation, Music player, Tagboard. Widgets: Similar to current. Ads: Organised - depends on layout.
If you have any ideas/comments, please feel free to contribute to me @ junyongkaya@yahoo.com.sg. Your contributions are very much appreciated.
I don't know about you, but today my dad gotta leave home at 6.30 (which I don't intend to wake up so early and slack in the office) so I woke up and told him I'll go work on my own later. So I went back into dreamland, alarm rang, my dad called to wake me up again at 7.20a.m.
I myself knew that I need to leave my house by 7.30a.m in order to reach the office on time. But even though it was 7.20a.m I still laze on my bed, and really reluctant to go to work. There is this battle between my emotion (feelings) and responsibility (my work).
I'm sure most of us face such battles in our everyday life, I'm not just talking about waking up, but the decisions you make everyday. I'm not gonna elaborate more but if you need more about that, you may visit Jinlong's blog on the topic "Make up your mind NOW!".
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My brother Dennis got his most memorable birthday present ever! He got sick... on his birthday. Well, most of us would go awww~ but I see that as an opportunity to rest, a valid reason to get away from this fast pace society.
Of course being sick doesn't make you feel happy, in fact it makes you weary and feel terrible but without sickness, how do you cherish times of being healthy? Its a contrast, everything is a guideline to how you judge things around you.
Talking about my brother, remember I bought him cuff links? (refer to the birthday post if you don't). So for like yesterday, I kept thinking about those cuff links I saw and man, they are nice. And then, this morning a thought struck me, like why am I being obsess with it? I mean, they are expensive and I've got no use for it, might as well as use the money to do something meaningful.
And I realise, I haven been giving back to the society, we think of our working pay as 'we deserve it' and its ours. But lets look at working in another way, think of working as providing help for your boss/company/etc... and the pay you are getting as a GIFT for helping out. When we help, we don't EXPECT a REWARD.
And in another sense, this GIFT gives us financial aid. So shouldn't we give thanks by returning part of it back into the society? Sharing your present (just like sharing a box of chocolate on valentine's) with others that don't have it? Its a joy for being able to share.
Anyway bro, take good care of yourself, pray for healing, remember to rest well and get well soon! God bless.
(and oops, I've spent about an hour on this post, gonna get back to work).
Woo man, can't wait for my major project/final year project (mp/fyp) to come, its gonna be fun and exciting! And I seriously hope that our proposal would be accepted in order to do what I like to do.
I know many would say I'm crazy, why would anyone hope for the project to come, but there's 2 reason for me to get so excited.
#1. Its our 3rd year 2nd Semester, therefore after the project and not long after, we'll graduate!!
#2. Its time to put effort and time into something serious, something that we really learn in school and it would be an asset to our portfolio.
Well, I just love animations, those fantastic drawings, 3d graphics. And putting them into one, you'll get anime, that's why I love anime too =). In animations, a different world from reality is created, and because our body yearns for a place like this, that's the reason why some people are really indulge into it. Its partly the reason why I like anime so much, and not to forget about those amazing drawings.
Its really incredible that someone can start everything from scratch into a full fledge animation. I wish to created a website that can be used to showcase animations/drawings, be it works of my own or others, as long as there are drawings, graphics, storyline.
So now my current goal is to complete my major project. And in the meantime, do a personal portfolio, and constantly upgrading it. Hoping that in future, this portfolio would help me to secure a career in the animation field.
Remember my post about talents and goals? I can't say that I've found my talents but I can say that I've found my goals and dreams.
Even though currently I'm in the office with practically nothing to do, and I wish the company laptop have photoshop, dreamweaver and flash. At least this free time slot gives me the space to imagine and think.
Btw, there are some upcoming/showing movies that I feel would be worth catching:
*TRANSFORMERS[robots in disguise](MUST WATCH!!) *Harry Potterand the order of the Phoenix *Surf's Up *Fantastic 4 - Rise of the Sliver Surfer
Woohoo. bro, hope that you'll like the present and my card. And wish you success in your career. Remember to remain focused and know that with your strength alone, you can do nothing. Take care and God bless you.
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yeah I went Raffles City yesterday and yeah shopped around for present for my brother and saw many nice stuffs. Like the cufflinks are very nice, and wow some of them are like $100- $200. Imagine your arms brush against the wall and you go NooOoOOoo~ But really they are nice and I'm sure I would not indulge in this kind of high end expenses. I'd rather buy some nice apparels and ear accessories.
So well, I suppose everyone can't wait to grab those stuffs they wanted since the Great Singapore Sale is here, me too but sadly to say, a part of me does not wish to spend so much money and I know payday is coming but I'm depending on that amount for life support, haha. Shall go budget and get some stuffs eventually.
Hope everyone is enjoying the sale, be it just window shopping or buying in bulks by trucks and carts. Although I feel that even with the sale, the stuffs around are still expensive.
Anyway, take care and cya! (I suppose I'll be back to blog again this afternoon, heh)
Somehow somewhere I feel that I have no talents at all, which at the same time I feel that it is possible to not have any talents at all, and I kept contradicting myself on the topic. And the fact about this is that I don't know my own talent.
What am I good at? I seriously don't know. I only know what I like, but I do not know what am I good at. There seems to not have a proper goal in my life. This is frustrating, but I guess I'll just have to spend more time thinking and one day I'll have the proper answer. I suppose..
Can anyone see this post? well just testing, because no matter how many times i refresh the blog, I'm unable to see the post right after my drawing, maybe blogger doesn't like it. =(
[ ok now I do see it. ]
Anyway, to prevent people from mistaking the my intention of blogging in "You" and "I", its not because I blog only to let others read, the "You" refers to anyone reading the blog, so the I is the inner me and the You includes me as well.
Meaning to say, when I read the blog, it serves as an reminder to me. It's like I'm telling myself to do this and that. So yah, the stuffs I blog about here is to express myself and it applies to me myself as well. So please do not get offended by any content in my posts. Cheers.
Hoho, the start of Monday!~ wish everybody well and do work with excitement ~.
By the way, I've added another Imeem player, which plays Japanese rock songs, those are my favourites, so hope you'll enjoying listening to them. =)
(choose what colour you wish to drop into your day.)
Hmm. What colour is your Monday?
Feeling a little blue because of work tomorrow or that school is gonna start already? Yeah no doubt that we'll always have such negative thingy about school and work. But why not lets look at things in a different way?
I've come to realise that I'm seeing my everyday life as a bore, even just travelling bores me. But hey hey, lets do it together, lets look at every travelling opportunity as a chance for us to read to upgrade ourselves? Since we see travelling as wasting the time, why not we do something to not let the time come to pass. In some ways, that's why people listen to music, read the newspaper, chat with friends, play games.
Back to the working issue, I don't know about you, but I was really bored by just being in the office, because after repetition, we often get tired/dry of things. But I'm currently in the process of changing my attitude, and perspective towards that. Shifting my focus on the joy of being ABLE to work and not on the NEED to work. Instead of telling myself that my boss wants me to do it, I tell myself that it is my desire to do it. Lets do everything with a good and positive attitude.
That change in attitude is not be a one or two day thing, therefore it requires a tremendous amount of encouragement and effort to do it, and I'm sure there will be days where I'm gonna blog about my unhappiness in my work. So therefore I hope my friends can really give me encouragement and reminder when I lose my focus.
I'll be there for you too when you need me, that's what friends are for.
So... Lets look forward to Monday!~ Monday Monday Monday, we are coming!~ (well, the above applies to Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, Fridays, even Saturdays and Sundays! *basically everyday of your life*).
Greater is He who is in Me. Indeed, after being frustrated for the whole working day yesterday, Ai reminded me to pray, and so I did. It really calms my soul and I did feel better. And the rest of my day I felt so carefree, except that my lappy made my bag heavy..
Well, for today, God really does great things, He kept me occupied with lotsa different task, such that my mind does not lose focus and wander off to unnecessary stuffs. Which is really good, instantly I was able to prioritize my current workload and brainload.
I am really blessed actually, I meant being in my office, with this group of colleagues. The few intern friends I have, really change the environment. Because for quite some time, I haven been going for lunch because I don't really like to move around and eat. I find it a waste of time on the travelling.
And my colleague on the 6th level (the level I'm in, while my department is on the 5th storey), they are one group because they are all from the same department, therefore initially i wasn't able to click well. But now as we know each other more, I started to have lunch with them, or even just going for a walk and watch them eat.
And today I went for lunch with them again, initially I didn't want to eat because I do not have cash on me. But hey, one of my colleague blessed me by treating me to lunch. She said because I helped her with her work yesterday and today (because I don't have anything to do and I don't mind helping actually.) and of cause when I help, I wasn't doing it for any reward. But since she is blessing me, I'll be glad to recieve it.
Well, I realise that social life is equally important eh? Just like what pastor Kong said, we are here to influence and not be influenced. If you agree, say Amen!
Back to add some stuffs: And if I've got nothing to do, I'll socialize with my friends on MSN or either do some random drawings on those recycle papers. (just like the one on top.)
I'm going mad. I'm going mad. This is total madness. Who says that data entry has got no pressure? Yes the job is simple, but the stress is great! The previous task, I was to decode those handwritings, and they were seriously difficult to read!
NOW! I have to face some serious crap from the people in China! The previous time they sent me incomplete translations, and I took the effort to comple all those they missed out and sent it back to them. But look at those crap they are giving back to me, again incomplete translations, missing translations, 2 different english passage translates to the exact same chinese passage? The 1st line is already wrong!
Tell me what to do? Send the passage back and wait for like 2 - 3 weeks again? Then let my internship drag to october right? Or am I to enter what I've given and ended up being blame for not checking? Or do nothing about those wrong translations and accused for not doing my work?
Crap! I thought send to China so long nv send come back means they doing alot of work, end up... This makes my impression of China getting from BAD to WORSE! China is really famous, you can see their news on the News everyday, about those counterfeit goods they sell, that are harming people all over the world.
Argh. This is madness, the surrounding and the work. I'm breaking apart, mentally.
All this happens, because I did not let God participate in my life. I made God a spectator. But not anymore, from now, this very moment, God IS my life.
God Bless all facing any single stress out there. Seek Him and we shall find rest. Take care.
(Kizaki Family watching the Windsoul Family fight)
Back to a little gaming, well because it appears to be fun? Currently playing Granado Espada (GE). And yeah I know I'm a little slow in starting this game because quite some time ago people already started playing, but well, I suppose I'm at my own pace?
So the above picture shows my characters sitting down on the steps, watching my brother's character(with blue icon on the top of the head) fight for me. I just started out playing for the 1st day, and my brother is kind enough to lead me to the newbie zones and help me lvl =).
And its really nice to grow from level 1 to level 13 in like 3 - 4 hours? Nice, but the bad thing is, I am unable to load the game in my office network, supposingly they restrict the access.
Well, I believe gaming too can build up relationships. At least that is better than not talking at all. So its just our way of communication. Cheers people. God bless ya and take care.
I must admit, its really hard to forgive and forget. Especially when you have this person sitting beside you and causing irritation to you everyday. She appears to be the devil in my life, because she is tempting so much to curse and swear, maybe some violence.
For the sake of the stupid time-wasting learn-nothing internship, I shall try to endure. But I am really suffering from much pressure till I can't breathe. Please pray for me that, its either she move, or I move. Or may her brain disappear the next morning. =x.
Or else, I might just go mad one day. Probably end up killing her. I won't say who, but trust me, you wouldn't want to know someone like this.
Recently I'm just so interested in pictures regarding skies, clouds, sun. Mostly got to do with flying. Maybe watched too much Air Gear anime, that is why I'm always imagining my self flying on blades.
I still remember the sky road they talked about, which means only those flying can see the road. Well if that road really exist, I'll like to see how its like. And I really enjoy blading, just the wind hitting against your face feels so nice. A sense of being free, being free from worries about work and stuffs.
This picture depicts of Jesus Christ decending from heaven as human form to save us from Immorality(bottom right), False prophets(middle), and evil-doers (child embracing darkness). - junyongK.
Blessed is the Lord.
I'm glad I placed Google ads in my blog, well because every time they lead me to very very interesting web pages that can benefit me!
just, I came across this powerful website, which talks about being free from SIN! You may not believe in Christianity because of those misled-ing "Christians" out there. But this site tells you how you can be free from SIN, because you must look to Jesus himself as an example and not those false Christians.
As most of you know that I've just converted from a non believer to a believer, so that you all may think that my words are of little credibility, but I tell you, these aren't my words and will but God's! God wants you to love HIM as much as HE does to you! HE wants you close to him! Even as a christian, I read through that article once and goodness gracious, I've learnt about so much more I had never look into before.
So you must really look at it! I do not benefit from anything if you click on this link, no money no reward would be given to me. The one who benefits from it would be you!
Its really funny of how gullible those people lead by flesh are. They believe in so many rewards and benefits given by the bank because of monetary reasons, yet they do not believe in words written down a long long time ago, proven by many people, the rewards in heaven waiting.
How short term our thinking is...
everytime people just say: "IN THIS LIFE, I want to..", "before my LIFE ENDS, I wish I can..". Lets just stop living in this short term goal. Our fleshy body may live a short term lifespan on earth but we are not the end! Century decade years months weeks hours minutes seconds milliseconds are just measurement of TIME but not Eternity!
To help you see things clearly, time is just like an WARM-UP test run of a Race, which is Eternity, God gave us time because HE wants to see if we are suitable for Eternity. Just like a coach does not just puts any normal member into an important race, he gives time challenges and test to see if they are ready for the REAL THING.
Give yourself a task today, you may disagree with what I've said here, but I challenge you to finish reading the article on this website. The rest is up to you, you can close your heart and read the article not willing to receive anything out from it or you can open your heart to any single understanding that you may find in the article. The ones who seek will receive and those that refuse to understand would of cause not understand, simple?
Click here to link directly to the website. Remember, I ain't gaining anything from this referral, and neither am I nor the website is trying to sell you any products. The site is totally FREE, as mentioned, it just BENEFITS YOU! So what have you got to lose? You just have to read.
[This image I found at a website, and there the title given was "Lifted into Glory". Beautiful name...]
What am I doing in the office right now? Doing data entry and stuffs, am I doing what I'm called to, or supposingly do what I like to do? After pondering over this question, I suddenly am reminding of my dreams, what I really wish to be and what I really wanted to do, but can I achieve that, or is it just a want from my flesh? There are quite a number of stuffs that I would like to do actually.
Like building a website and I meant a professional one, doing graphics design, being an animation artist or probably just drawing and design my own stuffs. So much of creative work eh? Well I'd really like designing and drawing. So probably I'll work on that. But right now my time is just so occupied, with this internship that I'm doing, which probably have no benefit for my future life.
What to do, for the sake of my diploma, a stepping stone for higher grounds.
Alright, change of plans. So well my elder brother cooked the meal together with a little help from my Mum, hehe. And all I did was staying in my room and making cards for both of my parents. They weren't complete before dinner so I continued after the dinner. AND.. TADA!! Finally completed..
Here are some pictures of the completed cards: Pre-done card for my Dad. Card for my Mum (front). Card done for my Dad (front) Both cards (front) Both cards (back). Card for my Dad (back). Card for my Mum (back)
and oh yah, thi morning my mother sent a message to me which goes:
"thnks son. Mom and Dad love you. Bless you and hugs."
which I've never received before and I really felt so blessed. Thank God for my mother and father. For the family I'm in, and I'll be sure to cherish them more.
and I'm kinda glad that my mom used the word Bless, because as I've said, she don't really believe in God and stuffs. So yeap, God bless my parents and everyone reading this. Take care.
to my greatest DADDY and all the lovely Father's out there, providing and taking care of the family, and also being a role model, setting examples and standard, and also the decision maker to lead the family to greater heights just like how a boss would.
and, also to our Heavenly Father for He created us with grace and we should be so honour that we are given the authority to rule the earth and also able to shine in the glory of God. Thank you my Father for loving me and just being here able to worship you.
AND,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!~
to my BELOVED MUMMY,for she has shower unconditioned love for the 3 of us. We ought to be thankful to God for we are able to be born into this loving family that we have here. I love my Mom and my Dad and my brothers.
so well tonight, its me and my elder brother preparing the dinner. We're currently cooking bak kut teh, Mandarin Sausage with egg, Beansprouts with shrimps, Snow peas, and Winter melon with sago. Oh but well, Mummy decided to join in the cooking. So yeah, we completed the Winter melon with sago without the winter melon (adding it in later.).
I suppose the dinner tonight would be wonderful, because it contains love and effort made, so the taste don't really matter I suppose.
God Bless all the Fathers out there, and also the Mothers for they have spent so much time of their life nurturing us into what we are today, so we ought to give all the glory to God and remember to be filial to your parents and constantly showing your love for them.
Finally, after a long absence from the breezing wind at east coast park, today I finally went back again to blade with my 2 working colleague. Jk bladed and Zhang Qin cycled because they had a REHAU bowling company outing and she hurt her back, which I didnt go because I had a planetshakers convert by New Creation Church. But hey hey, don't get me wrong, I went because of planetshakers and not because of New Creation, I'm a loyal harvester haha.
Alright so my day started off at 9a.m where i woke up and realise I was meeting them at 10a.m. so well i rushed and prepared, but ended up with a tummy ache. When I was going out, I prayed that the rain would stop and the floor would be dry. And so I rushed out and 10a.m and decided to cab down. Spent around 11 bucks for the cab.
Met up and we ate our brunch at parkway parade and the rain really stopped and the floor is really quite dry (but well I forgot to tell God to not rain anymore, I only ask for it to stop now and floor dry, didn't pray for the whole day to not rain). Walked/bladed to the Macdonald's at east coast park(ECP) and Zhang Qin rented her bike and JK's got his own blades. So we made our way to lagoon, sat down to rest and drink. (I saw Jim and Jinyao there too).
5 mins later it started to rain, so we decided to head back. Who knows that halfway through, the rain got really big, and its quite a distance away to Macdonald's. So the 3 of us are really soaked, from head to toe. And the main problem was, that my initial plan was to go skate in the morning, and late afternoon I'm suppose to change and go for Church service (Singapore Expo Hall 1[temp at hall 1, usual hall 8] City Harvest Church).
But my pants were soaked and I only brought an extra shirt. So we decided to take a cab home, and I'm heading for my girlfriend's house because its near and at the same time I can meet her =). So I went barefooted(because I don't want to wet my shoe, as Macdonald's had a flood outside) from Starbucks to Mac to taxi stand to my girlfriend house. Where I bathe and dried my pants, bag, book, practically everything.
After about 2 hours spent there, and I was late for service because I lost track of time, so well, took cab again (3rd time in a day... ) and well I sat alone for the service but hey hey it was really good as I go jumping up and down =D.
After that I had a make up Cellgroup at pasir ris, so took cab AGAIN with my zone members. And cell group all the way until 10p.m. where after that we went for dinner and I met up with Jinlong to go home together.
So yeap, as you can see, my whole day in summary is: Cabbing, Blading, WET, Cabbing, Girlfriend, Cabbing, God, Cabbing, God. Indeed, its the very 1st time I've spent so much money on cabbing in a day. 4 cabbing trip like this I think I can take around 20+ bus rides.
And you should notice that today I blogged out the whole detailed journey of my day, well, because I thought you might be interested to update you guys about my life every now and then, I mean thats if anything interesting happen like today, or else it'll be boring for you to hear about my daily life and routines.
Anyway, the most important message of the day:
GOD loves ME and YOU!! (everything He does and give, its because He loves you dearly)
God Bless all, take good care of yourself. Cya soon!~ jUNYONGK.
Yesterday night my family celebrated my Mom's birthday cum Father's day. Well its been a long time since our whole family of 5 sat down together and eat. We really need much more gatherings like this, helps to build proximate relationship.
Then back at home after dinner outside, we sat in the living room, and my Mom mentioned to my dad about me and my Elder brother that we are Christians. (well they talked about it ever since we were home, haha) Alright so we are more like debating on the topic, (because they debated with the gospel, that's why) so my mom was like saying, who decides who goes up or down when I told her the 2nd coming of Jesus. She said: "then if I don't believe in Jesus, then I can't go back to God?", I told her that God put us in this world to test us of our love for him, whether we'll go back to him.
Btw, allow me to tell you my mom's thinking, she is thinking that as long as you do good stuffs (because she don't believe that everyone sins, and believes that sins must not be forgiven) you'll be brought back by the Lord, she believes in herself and not God at all, meaning: Nonreligious.
So well our belief is that, Jesus is the bridge to God, and that God forgive our sins, and set Jesus as our role model so that we would not sin. And my mom is like saying, forgive sins? Does that mean we can keep on sinning?
and the truth is: DO NOT think this way, it is forgiven as in, your PAST sin before you believe in Jesus Christ and after that they are forgiven so that you would not dwell in guilty because of your past sins. Therefore we always say Christians are "reborn".
Uh huh Uh huh, so I decided I should explain anymore because of the outer shell of people. (pride in short) Yeah, and my dad went: "I want watch tv, don't talk about such irrelevant stuffs already". In my mind I was thinking, because they do not have the vision we see, how can aiming for eternity life be irrelevant? We are living in short term time (world) but we are living a long term life (eternity).
That is why in the past when I lived without vision I always say, "don't care, as long as I live this life happily can already", that make sense as in we should really enjoy this life, learning from this life to help people in need more. We should aim far, and should not put ourselves at the highest point in our minds. In this way, you would not care how people perceive you as, meaning you won't have to worry you today look good or not, today wear this can or not. Because you are no longer that important to yourself, even when people dislike you, you won't be sad.
That is why I'm so happy now, because I've found my happiness, the true thing that'll make me rejoice every single day, [ I just, want to be, more like you.. ].
Anyway, I'm wondering, is there anyone that is curious to know why I became a christian in the 1st place? If you wanna know, please tell me at the tag board, lets see how many people will respond and that'll decide the next topic for my post. *GRINS*.
Wow, how many donkey days haven I been blogging? 3 long long days, well because I hadn't had the mood to blog due to the flu.
I can't say I've recovered fully, probaby around 70%? Because currently still having a slight cough and running nose. And the worse is, all my medicine ran out 2 days ago except for cough syrup which is left with a last serving.
But hey, like what my friend told me, the cross have 2 sides to it. One side is salvation and the other is healing! Our God is a God of healing! So fear not because I know my Lord will heal me when the time is right! Prayer and prayer is the only thing I should be doing.
There is this line that has been ringing in my head for quite sometime and I feel I should probably pen it down, so here goes:
"Live what you preach."
I realise that I haven been doing that. I mean during this period of time when I was sick, I realise that it was a test from God to me, to test my level of faith. And yes indeed, how little it was, my faith. It wobble the moment something came and knock against it.
Due to weariness from the illness, I did not pray as much, forget to give grace, too tired to think of my Lord. I knew it wasn't right, but at that point of time, my mentality was "I'm too tired to care". I missed out cellgroup, service, prayer meeting all within one week (although I went for make-up cg but still no fellowship.)
My point here is, that indeed every circumstances in our life is created by God in order to test us for our faith and our love for him. Therefore I thank my Lord in this circumstance that made me realise how far apart I made myself to be from the Lord.
Distance between you and Him is decided by you, He would always be right beside you, but it depends on whether you'll allow Him to. Just like the Holy Spirit knocking on our doors, waiting for us to open it...
Well, although I'm sick for like 5 days which I'm unable to eat properly, sleep properly, work properly...
My 3 days flew past in a brisk, yet I'm still sick. All I remember doing is just sleeping, eating, going to service, make up cell group and poof!~ back to work.
I am still feeling so tired, so worn out, so restless. Everytime I close my eyes I'd feel this strain on my eyes because they were opened too long. And I really am afraid of going to the office. Some of you know why, and the reason is because I do not want to be accused of the one bringing the germs.
What should I and what can I do? No one likes to be working when they are sick, whats more that I'm an intern, who is not entitled to any leaves or whatsoever except 5 days of MC (which I have claimed one.)
And well, I'm having a loss of memory and a frustrated temper, because I'm so lost I do not know what to do. And I really can't remember lots of stuffs, so please bear with me and help me if possible okays? Thanks alot, and now I can't think of what to type here already.
When I thought that my coughs are recovering, I ended up with headaches and flu and even a serious cough. Thats really bad, I am really weak all over and I suppose I should tell my boss and go home rest yeah? Although I just started work for like 30mins? I suppose I shouldn't pass the germs to other people.
Maybe I'll skip cell group as well. Take care my friends, drink lots of water and water and water, do not end up like me, for its miserable to be weak.
We are just separated like the sky and the earth, but the love never disappears.
I'm getting mix feelings right now. I think some of you know what I meant.
I guess this is just reality, and we must seriously face it because separation would come someday, its just a matter of time. But we all know we would not be separated from God unless we want to and we'll meet each other in heaven, yeah?
To the 6 brothers and sisters if ya reading this,
I'm really glad that I could be part of the cell group and part of your lifes. Although we've known each other only for a short period of time, but i just want to tell you people that I enjoyed knowing you all, having fun with you guys and that I'll really miss you all. Some part in our lifes we would go through rough patches, but be glad that at least you know of someone caring for you and friends that would walk you through together.
Take care lots in the new environment, and be sure to miss us (and I know you will). Lets all pray for each other that be it where we are, we'll be able to grow stronger spiritually together.
Don't worry people, we still can meet up in service and maybe for outings, dinner or something. Really thank God for having all of you, N20 in my life. Love you all.
-author's notice- Some of you reading my blog would be thinking, why are the posts getting personal. It's because I want bring you up close in to my life in order to relate better. And if you have any questions, trouble, worry that you wish to share with me or need my comments.advice on, please feel free to drop an email to me at junyongkaya@yahoo.com.sg. or leave a tag at the tag board. Anonymous readings and critics are welcomed, but please tag decent contents suitable for all ages.
sTUDIED in:
Temasek Polytechnic(2005 - 2008)
Nan Chiau High School(2001 - 2004)
May Primary School(1998 - 2000)
Towner Primary School(1995 - 1997)
bELIEVES that:
- Everyone has a purpose on earth.
- God loves ME and YOU.
- Nothing is Impossible.
- Having a good attitude is having a good life.
- Do unto one as you would others do unto you.
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